So you think that you want to know something and when you get your answer you feel like your expectations of this were, well I don't know, what was I expecting?  I guess this feeling is my disapointment to some extent. I realize that some 44 years ago I didn't have a clue who I was never mind who anyone else was or would be some day.  It also makes you realize that in reality you were not remembering your true feelings from so many years ago, and the feelings that you have now are opening up memories. Honestly this whole experience has made me sad.  Life has a way of putting itself in perspective. So who knew.........