What if.

What if you were on the other side of what if, wishing and doubting decisions made.  There is no way to reconcile them, you just need to own them, or your life will be an eternal  revolving door of doubt. 

There is only one person we have to please in this life and he is very "forgiving". May God Bless you and keep you forever and ever.

Waiting

So Waiting is one of the hardest things that we go through.  We wait for things we don't want, we wait for things we want so badly that we drive ourselves crazy with anticipation.  This past month I was waiting for my 10th Grandchild to be born.  My daughter was overdue and in great discomfort, I was worried for her, she has gestational diabetes, she is 36 and it has been over 7 years since her first childbirth.  But worrying like waiting sometimes is something we do that we have no control over it or the situation.  So I relied on prayer.  This is something that I know is not wasted, and it is something that will give peace to everyone whether they know it or not.  I thank God for a healthy beautiful new grandson, and my daughter is doing just fine.  I feel like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders when I gave my worries to God.  I am thankful as always.......

Another Doll

Another Doll




Just finished another doll. This one is for my sister to give to a very dear friend of hers, that lost her mother to breast cancer as we did. I really enjoy creating these dolls no two are alike, I love designing the clothes and deciding how to make her clothes say something about her. I am working on my next doll, blonde and blue eyed, a larger doll.  Another Doll for breast cancer awareness.  I have other dolls and hooples on my Etsy site.  sudds49.etsy.com  take a look :)

The light at the end of the tunnel

So today I learned that I did not get the job I interviewed for, I feel a little disappointed, but really not so much.  The only thing is that I guess this was on my mind more than I thought, I really hate the unknown.
So I will move on.
So I finally today received the answer from the Landscaping committee that I was approved for the evergreens and trellis I want to put in my back patio area. 
So I will move on.
I can now concentrate on other projects I have unfinished, and move on.

If you want to see the
light at the end of the
tunnel, then sometimes
you have to stride down
there and light the

damn thing yourself.

(author unknown)

Growing up Gold

So when you get on with your life, and life happens as it will for all of us, riding that roller coaster of life.  We sometimes forget to look back and remember all the golden years of our youth.  Remember family picnics, the first day of school, new shoes and a new school bag.  Being old enough to walk to the bus stop by yourself.  Christmas morning when you still believed in Santa, (I still believe).  Watching as your siblings open their gifts you got them feeling like you knew just what they wanted.  Playing outside after the street lights came on.  Attending your first prom with someone you were in love with, even if it was puppy love.  Finally being old enough to go on a car date, and ride the back of a motorcycle.  I had such a wonderful childhood even into my teens.  I was not the best student, but I was very happy, I had lots of friends, and loved responsabilities.  Loved that people trusted me.  Getting my first job at the local supermarket finally a paycheck so I could buy things for my sister, parents and brothers.  The years we look back on are the Golden years, and I am thankful that they were mine.  So who knew life would be so special.

The Interview

So today I had an interview for a new job.  The job is right here in my bureau, someone retired and the job became available.  I was one of 4 candidates, not sure how I did, but everybody knows me, and I asume that they know what I am capable of.  I guess the question is do they want a 60 year old woman for this job. I will have to up date this blog when I get the news good or bad.  Either way I will be fine, I really love my job and my supervisor is the nicest young man, I just think I need a new challenge to keep me motivated.
Actually the best part of this job would be that I get to stay here with everyone I already work with.  I will let you know.....

So you think that you want to know something and when you get your answer you feel like your expectations of this were, well I don't know, what was I expecting?  I guess this feeling is my disapointment to some extent. I realize that some 44 years ago I didn't have a clue who I was never mind who anyone else was or would be some day.  It also makes you realize that in reality you were not remembering your true feelings from so many years ago, and the feelings that you have now are opening up memories. Honestly this whole experience has made me sad.  Life has a way of putting itself in perspective. So who knew.........